So bright.
Like this feeling this picture gives you, Abandoned, forlorn, mostly sad.
I’m just sad that i think i screwed my Os Chinese Paper 1 totally. AH. 
I badly need my chinese to be an A1! Yeah, so badly.
But on second thought, It’s over! Hahaha Yay. The questions were still pretty ok, except for my as slow as a snail speed in completing the paper in the destinated time. Maybe i was just too much of a nervous wreck and my creative juices stuck somewhere in my brain, no? Anyw, It’s over! 
Over over over~ Hahaha. If i’m getting this excited about finishing this measely chinese paper, i think i’ll jump and yell and hurray when the entire Os are over. Heh heh.
I’ve decided, i shall let myself take a breather today. ( Mm. I think i’m taking one everyday anyw. 
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Band tmr~ And 3S5 is having our class barbeque the day before everyone leaves for camp in Malaysia! Haha i’m feeling so much happier! I shall not pay attention to what you’re trying to do, how you’re feeling, and your every single movement i used to take note of.
Hell to stresssssss ^_^ HAHAHA. 
Resonance.
I am watching this right naoo! Totally rocks you know~ Don’t think this is just another show for your grannys. All those awesome bickering, Haha. 
Culinary~
Hehe. Cafe World on FB is such a cute game! I get to mash potatoes, whip up heavenly desserts and etc! Somebody be my Neighbour on Cafe World leyyy. Haha.
Mm. Tmr’s gonna be my first O level’s paper~ And i’m feeling v v nervous about it for i don’t know why. I’m afraid my essay would go…, my paper 2 would be …, my letter writing would have lack of…, Aiya. I don’t dare to write them out, cause i’m afraid they’d come true.
JY AH YIFAN!!!
Ah, Still feeling nervous.
It’s back to square one.
I’ve decided i should ! Hahaha. Anyw, i think it’s now i find a remedy for my seriously worsening dark eye rings. OSIM has this thing where you put it first in a cool dry place and then you wear it over your eyes. It gives a smooth cooling effect and relaxes your sunken eyes. Try it!
At least it works loads better than the Garnier Eye Roller.
Reality escapee.
Actually, i’m pretty sad today. And i’m thinking it’ll actually bring me a few laughs if i can get to rewatch G-Force once again. Those adorable rodents. Lolol. At least they do not have to go through everyday as a turmoil and sit for exaaminations here and then.
Report books were given back today and my level position dropped by a total of 43 positions you know! 
If this shitty results are to continue next year, i really don’t know how am i going to get a JC to accept my application. Everytime after i receive this kind of negative news about my results, i feel my spirits go all the way down. I feel sad. I feel unhappy. I feel … oh wdv. But i do nothing to change the present. I do nothing to make everything better. I do nothing to move myself up and back onto the few better positions in the level again.
Instead, what i do is to escape. Literally. I push my thoughts about my stupid results at the very back of my mind, I sleep, I play, I shop. Most importantly, i try to forget and not make myself and think about it all over again. Pointless, I feel.
And now, i’ve decided i’ll let myself be overwhelmed with torrents of sad thoughts. This time i won’t escape, i’ll entertain these thoughts and write.
For the past End Of Years, the night before every paper, when i’ve decided i’ll give the subject a good 5 hours, once i seat myself at my desk, i’ll feel all my energy drain and my eyelids start drooping. Before i know it, i’m already lying on my bed, somewhere faraway in dreamland.
I put alarms to wake me up in the middle of the night. I put them right on my bedside desk. But instead they do not wake me up but wake my parents who are sleeping and snoring heavily in their bedroom which is directly opposite to my bedroom. And so, in the middle of the night, they have to drag their bodies out of their comfy bedsheets and switch my alarm off before it wakes our neighbours who are known to be pretty much of a light-sleeper up.
And eventually. You know what. I’ll sleep through the night, all the way to the next morning with zero knowledge about the next day’s paper in my brain. And in the morning when i wake up, i’ll feel like feigning sick and avoid going to the school.
It’s time to wake up. You’ll never know how horrible it is to be leading a totally wrecked life until you are the lead actress in it. Reminds me of what Bangguo said to me on the phone, sadly. He used to lead a pretty wrecked life. And obviously, it’s my turn now.
Sometimes, maybe you can’t blame everything on being too tired to study and cram. Haisong, he is a really busy man, i’d say. But he manages to keep his time organised and all and still manages to complete what he is supposed to be doing on time. And he does play and have fun too. But i’m mad at him for stepping so hard on my foot today and didn’t release his foot until i promised to help him with the particular chinese character he had difficulty in. It’s an unhealthy exchange. Rofl.
Everyone has their troubles. I know i’m not the only one. But i guess i just need some place to confide in. I’m sorry if i dampened your mood.
Plus today, I saw you give me the swift turn of your head in the direction opposite to mine today.
And to somebody out there whom i talked to during recess today, I didn’t mean to talk to you in that way. I meant it in a jokingly manner. I’m sorry i led you somewhere else. I really don’t want to leave such an impression of me in you. I find you a pretty sensitive person, and it’s in a pretty good way.
What is life?
Money Money Money.
Here’s my money tree~ Got some colour pencils and coloured the tree for ME that Ms Junaidah said was too much a trouble to cut out. As you can see la, i’m so obviously broke! I dun have enough coloured dollar notes with me that i have to use coins as deco. LOLOL! Haha. I think it looks really adorable up there~ Haha.
One glance, is too much.
3 days MIA. Sorry!
Anyw, i did some work last weekend you know! Except that it was some overdue hbl work la. I think hcl teachers are crazy nowadays. They pile us examination papers from all the schools well-known for their superb academic results. And now, i think we’ve got a total of 10 cl exam papers to be completed, and the timetable set was to be one day one paper, everything including the essay, letter-writing and the comprehension you know! Anyw, everything is gonna be over on the 10th of November. Omg. I didn’t realise it was this fasttttt.
Ok, Weekends i went to the library to finish up my chinese papers with Jiawan, Haisong and Bangguo. Haisong and Bangguo went to the library earlier to help kope seats and we were supposed to have lunch together lo. But then these two, they made multiple calls and kept saying they were getting hungry and so i said they settle lunch themselves first lo.
I didn’t know i could look this serious in work.
Haha. I love taking Jiawan’s unglam photos.
This was placed on the study table and i think we didn’t meet any of the ” Be Considerate” rules lo, maybe except for the ” No food and drink in the library” one. Haha. Take a look at this :
- Bangguo and Haisong reserved seats for Jiawan and me.
- The guys left their belongings messily on the table and went to grab a bite.
- Haha. We were so not using any library materials, doing chinese hbl work leh.
- Order of loud noises made by each person: ( in descending order ) –> Bangguo, Haisong, Yifan , Jiawan.
- – MET REQUIREMENTS –
- Haisong placed his feet on the seat, but maybe not a vacant one. Lolol!
I like my old phone. It gives surprsingly nice effects for photos taken. 
It was a rather fulfilling day that day and i managed to accomplish quite a few homeworks. I remember Hs’s girlf came to join us later on and i really find them an adorable couple! Haha. Stay happy together ya~
Haedstart has begun! And today’s chemistry and physics lessons were awesome! Mr Loh showed us multiple experiments on Work, Energy & Power and i even participated in one of them! Haha. Interesting~ He made a huge bubu (? ) on mixing up Jw and I’s index numbers cause we were wearing the 2I3 class tees tgt today and our index numbers from last year were printed at the back of the tee and he thought what we were wearing were this year’s 3S5 class tees and… Aiya. It’s a long story. Lolol!
And, Mr Yeo showed us experiments on the grass area outside the chemistry lab and they were explosive ones! Like the experiment of the reactive metals, sodium when put tgt with water. Tere was actually an explosion! ! ! 
Plus, i think i did pretty badly for yesterday’s band’s solos. pretty much of the French Horn people were either sick or absent. AIYA. Forget it.
Brielle, Get Well Soon! Love to hear your spastic comments soon! =)
Anyw, gotta go get some lunch! Mummy said she’s bought me something nice to have for lunch in the fridge!
Bye!
Three trees.
Caught a movie with Jiawan yesterday~ And this is it!
Ahaha. It’s a really silly and at the same time hilarious movie. Ok to tell the truth, the reason i went to watch this movie, is to see 古天乐’s gorgeous face! <3! HAHA.
Look at my face! Haha. I would love to post some nice photos up here but yesterday’s photos of us look just so silly, like in the movie. 
Oh ya! It was still early after the movie and we went to this eatery, Mm maybe it’s alright to call it an eatery, it’s in Jp and sells all sorts of cakes and puffs etc. related to durians. Haha. Their durian puffs were awesome! There were even these nice looking chairs and tables in the eatery where you could sit and enjoy their awesome durian creations! Rather affordable too~
No editing done for this photo you know! Anyw, i don’t know how to edit pictures lo. But this one! Ahaha. I like!
Today’s Moral Ed lesson, my group did bookmarks. Group members were quite a few though very few actually did work. >.< They’re supposed to be Haisong, Bangguo, Huini, Jiawan, Aikseng, Jianxing, Junren, Hongwei and Leslie but many went for the CIP thing. Anyw, Jianxing helped me trace the adorable trees i drew! ( HAHA ) Ty ty! Actually they were intended to be this big and supposed to be ” protruding ” ( like what Aikseng uses to describe them ) out of your books when you insert this supposedly bookmarks in but Miss Junaidah said they were too much a trouble when you cut them. She gave us this slogan which she thought out of randomly since we were doing bookmarks to promote Nature Reserves. ” Trees are Sexy! ” Haha. But i still just love that little tulip up there!
Have got loads of HBL work left umcompleted/untouched to finish up. Esp HCL, which is gonna take me years to finish both the papers 1 & 2. AH. I wasn’t like this back then, with loads of homework undone. I would say i was usually the first few to hand up homeworks! Aiya.
Anyw, going off to carry on with my HK drama~
